Father's day was another harder one. As I was thinking how nice it would be for us all to visit you together, Magnus and Jarelle came with gifts for you. J is very tall. I see evidence that you are sadly missed by your friends. I am going away for a week to Spain. In memory of you I shall refresh my spanish. Oh son I want you back. Everytime you came by I felt alive. You gave me my first experience of a new life. how wonderful was that day. You left me giving me that unwanted experience of the death of a loved one. my own baby my first born. Now you rest while I wait to see you needing to believe that there is an after life. xx