I came on the 1st of June. I stopped by with Cheryl and Jade. I come many times and sit quietly and read. I dont know how much longer I can go on son. I dont even try to be strong. Kashif called sometime back. It meant much to him to have the letter he sent you. Oh son what a vacuum you have left. Why? why? why? My baby is gone. I cannot expect anyone to understand how i feel. I am filled with guilt? would you still have been here if I had been home?